“Laugh at the days to come” – Proverbs 31:25
I’ve been very blessed to be modeling frequently with my agency, Brand. This past Thursday I was booked to attend the Big Brothers Big Sisters Gala in Orange County as a model/hostess. It was emotionally amazing and rewarding.
When I received my booking information with the location, wardrobe requirements, etc. I didn’t stress one bit about the fact that I didn’t have a red dress, because 1) It gave me an excuse to shop and 2) I didn’t have a staple red dress in my closet and now I was going to.
Well, well, well. My patience was tested. Many of my girlfriends know I have skill when it comes to finding a deal in the shopping arena. But this time I had no such luck.
After going to 3 consignment shops (Crossroads, Recycled Clothing, and Buffalo Exchange), Ross, TJ Maxx, & Forever 21. I had bought a cotton red dress with black lace that did not meet the RED DRESS requirements. Plus I spent $200+ on things I didn’t even know I needed. 6 hours later I was $200 and onedressthatneededtobereturnedbecauseIshouldn’thaveboughtitanyways away, from the red dress I needed.
The next day I woke with confidence and absolute assurance I would find the dress I needed for the following day event. I headed to Marshall’s with no luck, then hopped into Loehmans where I scored! I grabbed 3 red dresses off the rack and headed to the fitting room. There was one long jersey dress for $49 and another off the shoulder, above the knee, fitted dress for $249! There was no way I was paying 200 and freakin 49 dollars for a dress. No way. So I bought the maxi. Which was nice and would work.
But oh how I loved that expensive one. Man oh man. Red dress of my dreams.
It’s the day of the event and I’m one long maxi dress unhappy owner. I don’t like it. It’s showing way too much boob and is a good 1/2 foot too long. I had every excuse to take it back to get the $249 one. I justified my spending. I was going crazy.
Back in Loehmans, 2nd red dress returned and “the dream red dress” purchased and guess what? It was on freakin sale!
You have got to be kidding me I thought. All this stress, all the “trying to save a buck”, all the driving, all the time wasted.
Why am I telling you all this?
Because you can avoid the battlefield of the mind. I’ve always been very frugal. Counting pennies (literally) to pay bills, cutting coupons to have an extra dollar. Really because I had to… But God has answered my prayers of financial freedom. He has been so faithful.
What’s at work in my mind now is the thought of not being worthy of the finer things I life. The devil tells me “you’re cheap”, “you can’t wear that” “you can’t afford that” “you don’t deserve nice things” “you will never fit in” but The Lord says I am a child of His. I am a heir of His Kingdom and I am worthy of His love and blessings.
Do not feel shame for the blessings you have received. But do not covet. Pray for discernment and wisdom in your finances. Give some away, save some and spend some. This life is meant to be enjoyed. God did not give his one and only son for us to live lives of meekness. But to live lives filled with love and His many blessings. Don’t block blessings with wrong thinking.
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes?… Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?” Matthew 6:25-27