This would be an Afternoon with God day. Day 2 of my 30 Days of Journaling Challenge and I’m already feeling closer… more connected… intimate with God. I’m notice I have a lot of questions for God. I believe by the end of this journey I’ll have many of them answered.
Monday November 10, 2014 Day 2
After waking up at 4am for no apparent reason, you can imagine my sluggish morning routine. Plus, yesterday I wore 4inch heels for nearly 10 hours and yes, I’m 7 months pregnant. I feel like I got hit by a bus. (and I look like it too)
I didn’t spend my morning with Jesus but I’m spending the time I usually take a nap with Him now. This is HUGE for me, because I love my sleep.
I had 5 mins of alone time in my car before going to work and I flipped open my bible, picking up right where I left off in Jeremiah. I read 2:23-37 and these verses stuck out:
“You are a swift she-camel running here and there.” 23
“Do not run until your feet are bare and your throat is dry, but you said “it’s no use! I love foreign gods and must go after them.”” 26
“Where are the gods you made for yourself? Let them come and save you when you are in trouble.” 28
“Does a maiden forget her jewelry, a bride her wedding ornaments? Yet my people have forgotten me, days without number.” 32
I think about the wind I’m trying to catch. The carrot. The must dos. All these foreign gods I worship daily. And none of them could save me. I spend so many countless hours on social media, watching television etc. These man-made gods everywhere. I’m so caught up in it, I hardly realize I seek them daily and more frequently than I do God.
I am so undeserving.
Yet He loves me.
I fail Him daily.
Yet He showers me in Grace.
I wanna be more like Jesus. I wanna do what I’m called to do. No distractions. Intentional living.
What is my purpose?
I’ll never know until I quiet my mind. And stop saying yes to unfulfilling things and start saying yes to an ALL fulfilling God.
Being human is so hard!